There are some feelings that are really unexplainable. Feelings such as the one I felt today. I can totally say this is THE BEST birthday celebration I've had recieved from ANY friends for years! One of the day I've yearn since the day I stepped into secondary school. Imagine, people who once bullied you like crap down to shit, split you slowly into pieces, and then scram off laughing their asses away, NOW celebrating your birthday with you, congratulating you, AND LAUGHING TOGETHER with you. That's one of the most amazing part of life. In fact, I call it really touching!
Then there's a friend who barely knows you for only 4 years; 2 years lesser then the others. Helps to organize an event for not only a gathering, but also a birthday celebration!
OMG, that feeling! Considering the time and effort to spam off messages to people and tolerate some questions! I really couldn't explain anything about it! It's just that touch.
And just when you thought they call you to ask about your favourite fruits just to end off the celebration with a cake, they actually made one themselves! AND NOT JUST make made. Make made, fail, throw, make again!
UNTIL IT WORKS OUT! UNTIL THE TASTE IS RIGHT, UNTIL SATISFACTION,
just for me!
And there friends, friendSSS, whom you seldom really contact with, ALL SPAMMING YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU AT ONE GO! ALL! ALTOGETHER! That satisfaction, to think that there are so many friends who make you glow, who makes your presence that bright and meaningful. To think that I thought I was always in my very own world, creating my own structures, when people are actually out there supporting me morally.
And then there is this friend, who is now overseas for studies, scribbles a HAPPY BIRTHDAY text to you on your wall. And adds on, "can I have your address?"
I'M NOT DONE YET!
Another one, who has always say you're her best friend. But is going for a Vietnam business trip, but said she will celebrate a 1 on 1 celebration for you birthday when she comes back.
Then there's this one, who also say I'm the bestest buddy, send me massive messages WORD by WORD for each message. A total of 7 messages. NOT only that, she dragged down her boyfriend too! AND he sent me a total of 19 messages, just after the 7. And just when you think the matter ends here,you're wrong! The couple even shared money to buy me a WHITE shirt from FOX for my birthday!!
One more, she's so close to me that we call each other brother and sister because we hold the same surname, same birth month, somewhat same personality, somewhat same favourites. Said she's gonna go to sentosa just to kill me because of the lie, but didn't! And not only that, she made my day so worth! Crapped and laughed with me.
Then there are other friends, who couldnt make it for the gathering because of work and other stuffs, rush down for dinner with me, just after they're done with it!
Then this friend, TOOK LAST MIN LEAVE, just to celebrate birthday with me!
I'M NOT DONE! Don't you dare leave!
And then when we're dining together at the evening, I knew I made exceptionally lame stupid jokes or movement. Something that makes people look =.= BUT they all still laugh together. NOT just laughing, BUT natural laughs! And when I see all the smile, giggles and laughs from my friends, I think I just melt. It's like we filled the whole place with happiness!
I thought I'll lose a few lives today because of the lie, but nothing actually happened. The person I thought would MOST likely wouldn't turn up, turned up. The person whom I wish never turns up NEVER TURNED UP!
Love you. LOVE YOU ALL!!!
I Goh Bing Xue LOVES ALL MY FRIENDS!
I BIPBOP BIPBOP YOU! [Hand signing it]
I think i owe alot of people alot alot alot. So much that I don't even want to think about it. It's like they don't expect anything from me at all! I didn't even congratulate some of them during their birthday, I dont send some of the closer ones any gifts, I don't make them feel as if their birthday has been meaningful, BUT YET, they still did this for me. I seriously owe too much. I have to say sorry to those they knew should have expected it. I'm sorry. I really am.
Thanks for all the good times you have given me. Thanks for being with me even when i was not with you. Thanks for cherishing me. Thanks for all.
I am one, you are my all.