Your Dreams Are Yours and Yours Alone!
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(Monday, June 8, 2009-)
+10:31 PM]*

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I was at his cremation today. It's the last chance i could walk a journey with him. We took the bus offered after a short walk. Our bus was just behind Dixon's bus. During the bus ride to the cremation centre, Hui Ting told me this that impacted me.
"In front is our friend, who is going to be burned. The thought of that made me cry."

During the cremation was the most heart aching and unbearable one. His close one were all sobbing badly. They shouted " Dixon! Dixon quickly run away quickly! Dixon quickly run! Find your mummy! Mummy will take care of you! Faster Dixon! Go find mummy. Mummy take care of you. The fire is coming! Faster run Dixon!"

There was a massive break down after that. Everyone couldn't hold their tears. It just rolled down. I regretted alot. I truly am sorry Dixon. Please for give me.
I still cannot accept the fact you're really gone in reality. You'll still be alive in my heart... all our hearts i can say. We all miss you.

I dont wanna regret anymore. Friends out there, please hear this. Shout the next sentence out loud and clear.
"BING XUE LOVES YOU ALL"
No more regrets please, no more impacts... i can take no more.

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+9:23 PM]*

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Dixon, i'm sorry. I am really sorry. I wasn't a good friend. I was bad. And i regretted alot alot. I know this wont change anything but i have the urge i need to do it. I regretted not having attended your birthday. I regretted not having to help in situations i could help you in. But you shouldn't have made me pay this way. I really miss you badly. It's the first time a friend made me cry to sleep. Day and night i just see your face, charming smile.

I confess...
I'm sorry for not attending your birthday party, its a regret for life. I could've been able to go. But i just said i couldn't without even having to bother about asking my parents. Because i guessed i couldn't go so i didn't bother. I thought there could always be another chance to see you. I never knew that would have been my last. My worst regret till now. I miss you. I wasn't a good friend. I want you back. It's pain. You have no idea how much pain you've caused to so many people.

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(Sunday, June 7, 2009-)
+11:11 AM]*

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Argh! I don't feel good. I keep thinking something is now missing inside me. I feel sad. I feel angry! I don't know why. I'm missing him. He shouldn't have left this early. The good things were just starting to happen. Why do i keep seeing him smile in my mind?.. He's got such a charming smile. I don't want him to go...

He told me before, he didn't want to wash his school shoes because his mother put something on his shoes to make it white. He said he wanted to study. His father doted him. He made his father proud. He gotten into a poly despite being home schooled and expelled.
The good things happened... He scored well for O levels, he passed his motor license, people celebrated his birthday, his girlfriend was with him for years, and then this happen. I don't like life. It's miserable. I still do not know the purpose of living. This really suck.
He's got no idea how many people was affected. He's got no idea how much i'm gonna miss him...

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(Saturday, June 6, 2009-)
+6:50 PM]*

# Farewell...-

He who reunites with his mother will be respected and remembered...
6th June 2009

It'll always be in my heart.

"Death is not the greatest loss in life.
The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live."
Norman cousins quotes

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