Although i got the chance to experience this stage of life for another year, it's still not enough. Basically, nothing was enough. I'm blessed i could say. I had fun, honestly. Even the bad times we had, had form into fond memories. 

Yesterday, when they tore off that piece of art, my heart ached. It's over. I could feel it, i was going to cry. But joey said we've to move on. And i realise, life's like that. It gives me the fun, but it also gives me the cruelty in equivilent. I fought back my tears. It was then i realise, all those arguements were nothing. It couldn't ruin the fact that we are indeed friends. How much we hate each other were just fakes and hillucinations. 

4 years ago. I was just a one short geek being played around with. 

No strength no place no friends. 

So much so that i hated going to school. I feared schooling! I had nothing there. And most of all, i hated the people around me.

4 years later, all had changed. What i hated is now what i cherish most. We grew much, talked much, played much. What now? It's time for what's most unbearable. 

Yesterday, we were told one thing -that class was no longer ours. I've signed out my report book. We're no longer a class anymore. I no longer own a form teacher anymore. I can no longer do things the way I did those few years ago.

No more fights, no more arguments, no more teamings. No more carnivals, no more chats in school, ...no more school.

My emptiness was filled with all they gave me. I know I'm not alone. They are always around me. There's alot i couldn't put into words. I hope what i tried to do made them notice that i'm trying to convey something to them. I wonder what my life would be after all this... What will i be? 

I suddenly like the life i had in the past. Where there were alot of fights and stupid incident. I'm glad all those happened. It's what school life should be. I didn't enjoy it then. But i know it's worth it. It's now part of me. I guess many things that happened before won't bother me anymore. But it's really unbearable. Many say that secondary school life is the only life where you experience most things together with different people. It's what cause unity. It's the reason why I'm sad. That unity will soon vanish. No one will remember the feeling of this day after everything else. 

I know I'm an irritant to many many many people. I know they are annoyed by me. I stayed on because i want to be with them. I know this day will come. So what if i irritated them and left a somewhat bad impression of me in them? At least i'm still remembered. Honestly, i couldn't remember much of my primary school friends' name -I don't even remember most of them! I don't want that to happen to me and them. I know i'll remember them. There's so many things about them i can remember for life. Both happy and sad. 

I hope i wouldn't be avoidedbecause of my attitude. I want to spend the last of these few days with them all, just before we part. And i hope many won't walk out of my life. The foot prints will always lay in my heart. It's a really great impact. 

I know i won't live another life like this... It's just like how i missed my primary school days. Somehow, i know they feel the same way.

I'm not afraid to cry. 

But a friend told me it's needless.

I know i will someday soon.

And i hope they'll all be by my side.

I really love them...