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(Tuesday, December 18, 2007-)
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# Sendimental.Memories.Fades.-


Today was the day we took our N level paper. Was so sendimental. Everything sucks! We waited long for the paper and gotten all nervous. Then results were release. I got a straight 8 marks and qualify to promote to sec 5 and continue secondary life. I was 1 of the lucky ones. But what tore pieces of my hurt out...is that friends; CLOSE FRIENDS' of mine who can't make it and sobs loudly in front of everyone. 2 GOOD YEARS...some even 4! We've been so united and this damn graguate thing tears us all apart! It's like you gotten your result and you starts wishing all to move on and continue together in the same batch when your wish...will atually never come true. This kind of feeling is so crappy!

It's like so not fair. It's like those who done well also get affected when those could not go on together with us in the same route...when we walked together for 2/4 years. We cried, we played, we fight, we gossiped, we tackled, and we worked...now we part. I read a qoute somewhere, and i find it extremely meaningful. And i think i really need to convey this out to everyone.

Whats the meaning of love...in the second form?
The word 'love', in persian, means to have friends.
When i say 'i love you', it is literally translated as 'i have YoU...as my friend'.
And when i say 'i do not love you', it simply means 'i do not have you as my friend'.
Some people always want to say this three words 'iloveyou' to any friends. But do not dare to sound it out to avoid on gossips. Now you can have this as a reason and say this proud to any friends...be it a boy or a girl.

Though i am able to move on to sec5...i dunno if i'd be happy with my current class left. Its like the first day of school and you see all the vacancy...empty...unoccupied seats. What will you think of? Those people who once set there and chatted with you...who once joked freely and smiled at you. What kind of feeling will enrage? It just feel so sad.

I had this friend...(best not to say put names on this kind of situation) i always sat beside her to chat on things. And two days before we took our results...we chatted about Ncert and that if we can move on. She said that she is nervous...and that she is terrified...that she can't make it to sec5. Obviously as a friend we'd give her some support and hope that comforts her...i said yes.
We met today... and she said she's extremely uptight...so is everyone in the hall. I said everything will be fine in eye contact. I got my result before her. I manage to be promoted. I returned to my sit and chatted with some friends...and i saw her cried. Other people was already there to comfort her...so there ahd be no way i pop to comfort her. I took a look at her cert my form teacher had left on his seat. I saw the word 'repeat' in her cert. I went blank...i dunno what to say...and i have no idea what to do. She just kept sobbing...and would'nt stop. Its just so hurtful. In my mind...it just say "im not going to see her...". And other similar situation happens... i look around me...and i know in my heart...im not going to see most of them next year. It so piercing... They cry infront of us...and they make you feel like crying too.

Should i see them as time pass...i wish you all a brighter future.
Should they climb in hieghts...Blesses may come in disguise.
Love you all!, Miss you all!


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