Your Dreams Are Yours and Yours Alone!
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(Saturday, November 21, 2009-) +6:44 PM]*
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" Sometimes i wonder... was i always toyed with by people around me, or did i caused it myself.
But why do most problems end up as disappointment to myself? The more i read, the more i ponder.. the more i get fed up the more i get upset the more i get disappointment. "
Yesterday I went to watch paranormal activities with YanJun. I WAS FORCED down to the cinema with 2 whole set of burger king behind my back. I exaggerate but the meaning is there. I have trauma watching horror movie already and this girl dragged my down to the ticketing after the sing song session. At least i pee-ed before i went in. It was horrible inside.
The movie started without us knowing. Seriously, how can a movie start just like that without notice! But we realise the movie started only a minute or so later. The how movie was filmed casually, as if there was no director and its situated only around a house. Super cool i tell you! I was soooo brave!!! I wasn't scared at all; i learnt the technique of coverage. This is one of the horror movie i wish to watch again! A REALLY NICE MOVIE NO REGRETS!!! Should watch!!! It's very fun to watch!! Especially when your theatre is filled with people all cramping at the back. It's cosy! Then this group of people is cool, THEY SHOUT YOU KNOW!!! Not only that, THEY LAUGH TOO, and they laugh after they got shocked! SUPER SHIOK! Me love, now go watch!
Oh yes yes yes! I got a really funny joke to tell. 2, not 1.
What does the panda wants most?!
A COLOURED PICTURE!!!!!
HAHARHAR HAR HAR HAR!!!! DAMN FUNNY RIGHT?! PANDA WANTS TO BE COLOURED!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Aiya, the blog tell not funny enough. Come find me i sure make it colder than this. BOOYA rockon!
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(Saturday, November 7, 2009-) +11:52 AM]*
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People pour too much in to me. At first i thought i could take it, but i guess i dont even understand myself good enough. I feel like i am going to overflow, there's too many things inside me. I guess i did, and i did the worst thing a human can do. Yeah, i betrayed a friend. Actually not just one, but quite a few. I am really sorry.
I can't make a good friend. But come to think of it, no one's ever by my side when i overflow. I say the wrong things at wrong times, and all i can do after that is apologise. People talk to me about things, and all i can do is absorb and listen. And the next moment, i say things out by accident. I feel like im gonna explode anytime. There's still so many... so many many inside my head. This is the worst lost i've made in years. Why do i feel my heart ache so much? Why am i crying? Guilt has always been written all over my face. But no one gets to see it. They still get close to me without knowing the risk. How many more will i lose in the future? I've always wished i'm a time traveller, i've always wished to sleep and dream my way away forever.
It's driving me crazy. Being afraid of living, both the pain and laughter. Its ironic. How dangerous the world can be even with your closest people. Being afraid of losing even when you laugh along. Being afraid of mistakes as you listen. Being afraid of saying as you speak. Yeah, i am also another paranoid person. I now believe that friendship is a very fragile thing. I've lost at least 6friends this month. Its only the 7th day of the month, and still counting.
What is wrong with me? How will i survive?
I am sorry to all i have hurt. I am even shameful of myself. I've been a very ugly friend to you all. I know...
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(Thursday, November 5, 2009-) +11:04 PM]*
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i am totally torn today man. Worn out, knock out KO.
Anyways, today i blog because i want to say some of my friends in my course are seriously fucked up. I dont see why they can make a big fuss of everything especially when they aren't the ones getting hurt at all. Hey come on, i go home almost everyday with at least a bruise on either my leg or shoulder. Now that is what i call getting HURT, like physically.
I can swear to anyone i dont give any solid BAD insult to ANYBODY before. I only annoy, i know. I thought almost everybody annoys, maybe i do exceptionally too much then. But again, is that a good reason to flame me off?!
Wdf larh, i seriously find some girls too tiring to handle, especially when guys like me live to perform and entertain. Yes i know, being stupid in other words.
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(Saturday, October 24, 2009-) +12:23 AM]*
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HI!!!
i dont need to count the days i havent blog.
I'm gonna blog about something like a month ago. I can't really remember what's the reason for going out, but me, tina and huiting agreed to go eat at ashton. A super imba location to have dinner lunch, whatsoever.
Okay straight away jump to the point, the both of them bought me a pop pop keh jacket. The ayam brand jacket. I dont know how to spell the actual name. I can't pronounce it either. I think ANY singaporeans who knows how to pronounce it, is gifted. Like how did it become branded goods when I dont even know how to pronounce it. Amazing. ENLIGHTEN ME PLEASE!
But i am SO proud to wear it. This year's the best birthday EVER! 18th birthday is totally imba! This is one of a kind memory that's gonna be etched deep inside my dumb brain for life man!
ETERNITY!
Oh, before they bought me the jacket, they intended to make it a surprise. They initially wanted to buy me a bottle, secretly. I didn't know they wanted to get me anything, but they brought me to the bottle section anyway. Each bottle cost a bloody blood sucking cash of 50+ dollars! Crazy. Not worth my smelly money. So i said " bottles, i reuse will do, so expensive. I drop and it'll break." Upon this sentence, they scrammed away from the section like tiny mice. Yeah.
Then i was tired from all the girl shopping, so i requested to sit down. That was when they bought me the jacket. Super sweet of them huh!
Oh yeah, i just uploaded a new song. Deep impact, written by a high and crazy vocalist. Total change of my life, im gonna help the needs, and make myself dirty! I'm gonna study hard and get a good cert. Im gonna mature myself to take plane flights to help the children in need. Im gonna share my lives with them and show them the meaning of fun.
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(Saturday, September 19, 2009-) +11:52 PM]*
# mr 18~!-
There are some feelings that are really unexplainable. Feelings such as the one I felt today. I can totally say this is THE BEST birthday celebration I've had recieved from ANY friends for years! One of the day I've yearn since the day I stepped into secondary school. Imagine, people who once bullied you like crap down to shit, split you slowly into pieces, and then scram off laughing their asses away, NOW celebrating your birthday with you, congratulating you,
AND LAUGHING TOGETHER with you. That's one of the most amazing part of life. In fact, I call it really touching!
Then there's a friend who barely knows you for only 4 years; 2 years lesser then the others. Helps to organize an event for not only a gathering, but also a birthday celebration!
OMG, that feeling! Considering the time and effort to spam off messages to people and tolerate some questions! I really couldn't explain anything about it! It's just that touch.
And just when you thought they call you to ask about your favourite fruits just to end off the celebration with a cake, they actually made one themselves! AND NOT JUST make made. Make made, fail, throw, make again!
UNTIL IT WORKS OUT! UNTIL THE TASTE IS RIGHT, UNTIL SATISFACTION,
just for me!
And there friends, friendSSS, whom you seldom really contact with, ALL SPAMMING YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU AT ONE GO! ALL! ALTOGETHER! That satisfaction, to think that there are so many friends who make you glow, who makes your presence that bright and meaningful. To think that I thought I was always in my very own world, creating my own structures, when people are actually out there supporting me morally.
And then there is this friend, who is now overseas for studies, scribbles a HAPPY BIRTHDAY text to you on your wall. And adds on, "can I have your address?"
I'M NOT DONE YET!
Another one, who has always say you're her best friend. But is going for a Vietnam business trip, but said she will celebrate a 1 on 1 celebration for you birthday when she comes back.
Then there's this one, who also say I'm the bestest buddy, send me massive messages WORD by WORD for each message. A total of 7 messages. NOT only that, she dragged down her boyfriend too! AND he sent me a total of 19 messages, just after the 7. And just when you think the matter ends here,you're wrong! The couple even shared money to buy me a WHITE shirt from FOX for my birthday!!
One more, she's so close to me that we call each other brother and sister because we hold the same surname, same birth month, somewhat same personality, somewhat same favourites. Said she's gonna go to sentosa just to kill me because of the lie, but didn't! And not only that, she made my day so worth! Crapped and laughed with me.
Then there are other friends, who couldnt make it for the gathering because of work and other stuffs, rush down for dinner with me, just after they're done with it!
Then this friend, TOOK LAST MIN LEAVE, just to celebrate birthday with me!
I'M NOT DONE! Don't you dare leave!
And then when we're dining together at the evening, I knew I made exceptionally lame stupid jokes or movement. Something that makes people look =.= BUT they all still laugh together. NOT just laughing, BUT natural laughs! And when I see all the smile, giggles and laughs from my friends, I think I just melt. It's like we filled the whole place with happiness!
I thought I'll lose a few lives today because of the lie, but nothing actually happened. The person I thought would MOST likely wouldn't turn up, turned up. The person whom I wish never turns up NEVER TURNED UP!
Love you. LOVE YOU ALL!!!
I Goh Bing Xue LOVES ALL MY FRIENDS!
I BIPBOP BIPBOP YOU! [Hand signing it]
I think i owe alot of people alot alot alot. So much that I don't even want to think about it. It's like they don't expect anything from me at all! I didn't even congratulate some of them during their birthday, I dont send some of the closer ones any gifts, I don't make them feel as if their birthday has been meaningful, BUT YET, they still did this for me. I seriously owe too much. I have to say sorry to those they knew should have expected it. I'm sorry. I really am.
Thanks for all the good times you have given me. Thanks for being with me even when i was not with you. Thanks for cherishing me. Thanks for all.
I am one, you are my all.
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+1:21 AM]*
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KUAKUA KUAAAAA~~~~
All got so excited when you heard i broke up with a girlfriend right???
AHAHAHAHA its all a hoax! None of such things happened. I made the story myself. Cool shit right?
Now come kill mee!!!
Oh and please man, at least wish me a HAPPY BRITHDAY before you lay your hands on me. =.=
No wishes, NO TOUCHIE. Screw you if you touch me without wishing. I'll bullshit on you when the time is correct.
I think the first person eligible to make the FIRST BLOOD is TinaGoh. I can feel her fuyo here already.
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+9:57 PM]*
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Sigh, i can't believe life is that difficult. Now I know the meaning of heart broken. I can't believe how much water i can flood the room with.
GIRLS ARE SOOO TIRING!
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On a lighter note, Joey suggested me to go M18 movies before i turn 18! Gate crashing!
Sounds fun!
I need to do more stupid things before another mature year comes! I believe i'm maturing slowly, aren't I? I know i am! So cut the crap. I need to do more immature stuffs before I become a mature 18 year old. More suggestion please? Ask me to do anything!
Like like like, like what? Eat noodles through the nose? Use ice creams as facial?
WOOHOO should be fun! Hey, people use chocolates as facial, ice creams does the same then. Most probably people will regard me as an alien after the session. More pimples heh.
And this paragraph is specially written for a special someone!
I am already that heart broken, I seriously do not need speeches that ugly from you
Miss Tina Goh Yun Siu!
Come on, i've been feeling that down each day i woke up. I barely survived such a bad incident and there you are stabbing me after i got one huge stab from the one i loved. Please man! Give me a break will you?! It's really annoying when someone you thought was pretty close to you be pretty irksome at the wrong times. GROW UP!
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